One of my goals in 2019 was to read two books a month. After challenging myself in 2018 to read one book a month, and then far surpassing that goal, I decided to double it for 2019. I’m proud to say I successfully read 25 books last year. But I am more proud to share […]
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When I Grow Up
From a young age, we are bombarded with the question “What do you want to be when you grow up?” The older we get, the more mature and serious the question becomes. “What do you want to do with your life?” people begin to ask. As we navigate our emergence from adolescence, we are simultaneously […]
On friendship, and why it’s okay to walk away
As a true introvert, making friends is and always has been hard for me. From an early age, I have dealt with what I now know is social anxiety, but for many years I figured was just my own awkwardness. The first time I can remember noticing this feeling was around age 9. That year, […]
Coming home
It was a sunny March day. The winter chill still hung in the air, but the first smells of spring were starting to peak out. Colors had begun to perk back up after a winter of brown and grey. It was a familiar feeling. That first step on the pavement. The wind at my back, […]
New year, same me
Like most people, I love the fresh slate a new year offers. The chance to start new, to set new intentions, to wipe away the struggles of the previous year. It’s like the first penmark on a fresh page of a brand new notebook. The beginning of something new excites me, and not knowing what’s […]
It’s been a while
I haven’t sat down in quite some time just to write. Well, I guess that’s not fully true. I have sat down many times to write. I’ve typed and deleted and typed more and deleted more. Nothing quite sounding right. But I’ve been feeling something inside of me lately. Something that I want to put […]
Living with anxiety
“Happiness” I tell myself, “is a choice… YOU can make that choice, Evan. The power lies within yourself.” I repeat this over and over in my head, cocooning myself in blankets, holding onto them so tightly that my knuckles start to turn white. Tears streaming uncontrollably. Unable to shake the urge to run at lightening […]
Let their hearts be soft
We have for so long lived with the widely accepted idea that in order to survive in this cruel, unfair world, we must work to harden ourselves. That in order to persevere through the pain we will inevitably feel, we must find ways to build up our own armor, our own self-constructed shields. That we […]
A new generation //
Like glass, shattered. Like paper, torn. Like bones, fractured. This is the state of our Nation. A heart so broken, a soul so numb, children are now blamed for ruining the innocence their “leaders” were supposed to protect. A mind so closed and a vision so stagnant, this new generation has come of age in […]
Manifesting confidence
T O B E C O M E M O R E C O N F I D A N T I N S P E A K I NG M Y M I N D If I had to choose my most important goal for 2018, that is it. Like most introverts, I often […]